the cold night actually fits my current mood now... whatever depressive (okie maybe not depressive that's too strong) words u associate with cold. yeah that's how i'm feeling.. well i'm not depressed. i dunno how to explain the mood i'm in. think perhaps the best word wld be sian. then again it's not really a very descriptive word. let's see... depressively sian? is there such a feeling? i dunno. sometimes, when u stand out in the cold, u actually feel refreshed, uninhibited, and in a strange sense free. at least that's for me. it's such times when i actually revel in the iciness of the weather. somehow i feel better. maybe it's the hormonal imbalance but i reckon it's not. and when u're in this kinda mood u just don't feel like doing anything PERIOD. it feels like u just wanna crawl under ur own lil hole and nv come out. or better yet.. u cld just crawl into ur comfy bed and snuggle up in ur comfortor and then don't ever get off ur bed. it's one of those times when i don't wanna talk to anyone at all.. okie maybe just a selected few.. like one or 2 persons. i have a feeling this might go on for the next few days. and i must admit i'm feeling kinda lost. lost abt what? abt heaps of things.... i can't even begin to list them out. and it's all in a huge ass jumble. and i have a few major assignments dued, and i'm feeling yeah... lost... cos i have no idea where to start. argh.. this sucks. i need my fucking sunshine days back. and maybe while i'm enjoying the cold, it might be ironically making me feel sian. dammit... i need soggy cereals.. but we just ran out of milk.....................................
*nota bene: i'm not depressed.. i'm just.. i don't know.*